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| I haven't blogged in AGES! Lemme tell ya, I used to have so many things to say, but I really don't have much to say anymore... My creative writing has totally gone out the door. I can't/don't even write in my journal anymore. Which I'm sure I will regret when I get older because I'm sure when I'm all old and wrinkly, I would love to sit down and read about my life when I was younger and sexier!
As I continue with my adventure called life, though, I do realize that I become wiser, smarter, and faster. I am wiser in who I choose to let in my life, what I choose to do with my life, and how I choose to live my life. I am smarter about my present actions, thoughts, and decisions. I am faster at learning, forgiving, detecting fake people!, and tasks because I know now, that every minute not used is a minute wasted.
I had my share of fucking up in school, and quite frankly, I am so not proud of myself! My grades are an utter disappointment every time I look at them. I look at them and I can't help but to think to myself, "Your grades are so low that you made an excuse as to why you allow yourself to continue with low grades" How pathetic of me to do such a thing! Nonetheless, I am graduating in Spring of 2011, which is coming way sooner than expected. And by the end of this summer, I will only have 9 classes left. Which means in one semester, I can take 4 classes only! Say what?! I never got to experience the joy of only 4 classes. 5 was my minimum. I'm kind of glad that I have the momentum to take 5 classes every semester. I actually think students who can't handle 5 classes (approx. 8 hours of school) are pure pussies. You did it for 14 years and you can't stick it out for another 4 and get it over with? Plus you get a month of winter break and nearly 3 months for summer break? Get over it!!! Taking 5 classes is not so bad!!!
Anyways...
I'm doing better at the bank than I thought I'd ever do. But I am growing to hate working at the bank. It's so mundane, that it's exhausting! I mean repeating it 4 days a week? I can't see myself working for a place like that for the rest of my life. I do however, love communicating with my customers. I enjoy listening to their hardships not because I have it better than them, but because it goes to show how people can be so close to you but yet so far, and it's rewarding to see people smile after venting about an unfortunate happening. What do I mean by that? Well, I would say that 100% of my customers tell me about their deepest stories and we've only known each other for what? less than 24 hours? & I feel as though they tell me because they have no one else to talk to who won't judge them. And of course if they tell me secrets, who am I going to tell? No one, because I don't know any of their family or friends. Basically, even if you have close friends, sometimes it's easier to tell a personal story to a perfect stranger because they can't judge you and what you really need is to vent. And I love that I play a part in keeping people sane. In addition to that, there are a lot of old folks who come in and just like to chit chat because they're lonely or whatever. Who knows? But I love that I'm a part of their day. Within the time working there, I've heard really deep stories from customers. Stories that I don't even expect to hear while I'm working. For example, someone got cheated on... someone died, he was an alcoholic, and she didn't care that he died.. a 17 year old who's pregnant.. a couple who just lost a house.. a husband who just lost a wife.. a wife who just lost a husband.. a mother of 4 just lost 1 in Iraq.. a man dealing with a mother with alzheimers.. the oldest daughter trying to take care of the burial of her mother because her siblings/family won't help her.. the oldest daughter trying to get money from the younger sister to help her dad out while he's getting chemo.. The list of stories I hear can go on!! but I just wish the best for all of them and I feel good just listening to them.
Whoa big rantageeeee. haha. :) I always think I don't make sense, but I hope I do.
Love & Peace..
Helen
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| I read my old post from when I went to Vegas for New Years with Paul. I've come along way since then. In that post it said that I don't ever want to leave, but was thinking about leaving Starbucks after so many years, and this year on January 10th, I am officially done with Starbucks.
I guess getting older only gets you to think of where you really want to be when you're much older. lol. I am so happy with life at the moment that I can't even complain. It just feels like everything is falling in my court, and I have the ball. When I got hired at BofA, they weren't really customer service based, and this year, now that they have a new CEO, BofA's goals are more customer oriented rather than non-customer oriented. I'm amazing at customer service and I just feel like everything happened for a reason. I feel like I got the job towards the end of the year only to look forward to the next year of being more focused on what I am really good at. Which makes it my year to shine. After 2010 is over, I will only have one semester left before I graduate and I've got to admit, it feels damn good to be close to graduating! I'm glad and proud of myself that I stayed on track and didn't lose sight of what I really want in life. It's crazy and amazing how everything worked out the way it did.
Being completely single with no attachment to anyone only made me a stronger person. I think being alone allows me to grow in the way I want to grow, and that feeling is so awesome. I can't even describe what it feels like to be able to rely on myself and myself only. I love life, and I am so looking forward to this new year.
Happy New Year, everyone! Hope everyone had a safe and fun NYE! <3
End of Year Survey1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
HMMM. Dude, I don't even think I did anything that great in 2009. lol.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I dont think i made a NYR in 2009. I try to make one but i've come to the conclusion that there should always be a resolution rather than just one just for new years. complete bullshit lol..
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
uh. nope.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
emotionally, one of my bestest friends in the whole wide world died. sucks shit.
5. What countries did you visit?
i have yet to visit another country!
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
a brand new automobile!!!!!! i hope i can save enough on time. :]
7. What date(s) from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
hmm.. january 2-5.. mid april... sadd may.. july 22!! damn there's too many events that will stay in my memory. lol. =)
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
taking six classes and passing all of them. ;D
9. What was your biggest failure?
grades... definitely<--- I feel ya, sista.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
NOPE =]
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my black coats from BR, Express, etc. :D
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My brothaaaa
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My first lavvvv.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Makeup!!!! =(
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My first REAL job where i can stand and look pretty and be chill. haha
16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
idunno.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Wiser? very much so.
Healthier? not at all.
Richer? hmmm..... i wish. haha.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
spend more time with loved ones.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
worrying about stupid shit.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
this christmas? probably the same way as every year! except ill be 21 so i can actually buy alcohol for family YAYYY!! =D
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I stayed in love in 2009. and fell out in 2009. sa sa sa saddddlyyy.
23. How many one-night stands?
365!! yeaaa buddy.. one for every nightt!
24. What was your favorite TV program?
didnt watch much tv. but i guess i watched a lot of discovery with him haha.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope. im so happy i dont have time to hate anyone!!
26. What was the best book you read?
angels and demons.. besides textbooks. LOL. =( I need to read moree *sigh*
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
LADY GAGA!!
28. What did you want and got?
what? in 2009? I wanted a job at BoA and I finally fuckin got it!
29. What did you want and not get?
a freakin car! but i dont have money to pay for it every single month anyways so its cool beans.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
not too sure. i forget what movies i watch. lol
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i had a birthday party, i was 20. and we partied like it was my 21st! =)
32.Whats one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
him.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
simple nd towards the end, more professional.
34. What kept you sane?
school, work, and cigarettes.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
lady gaga?
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
dont really know.
37. Who did you miss?
himm.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
hmm.. my new coworkers at the bank are pretty awesome. but Mia is the best one! :]
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
HMMMMMMMM.. Fuck its gonna be so cheesy. lol. but well... I guess after getting a job at the bank and working at starbucks and going to full school time, it left me to believe life is way too short to be sad, mad, or upset AT ALL. I'm finally learning to go with the flow and just let things be because things that were meant to happen will fall into place when time is right. I don't expect much from people because at the end of the day, you got yourself to rely on... I also learned that I'm pretty fuckin lucky to have the people i have in my life. and i also realized... i'm human and i make mistakes, but i've learned to accept that i make mistakes and i feel damn good about myself and life..
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
cant think of one at the moment! lol.
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| Hello, Xanga! It's been a while! I am having the time of my life working and playing! =) I guess when you don't have much time to play, and you work so much, you kind of appreciate playing more. w00t w00t!
Hmmm... I don't get very much random thoughts anymore. *shrugs* Lost the touch in blogging, I guess.
OH! Today, I was in the school library and I was GOING to sit down on a table, but there was a used tampon on it. WTF?! Why in the world would you take out your used tampon in the library, and why would you NOT throw it away?! You dirty whore, whoever you are! I better not find a PostSecret saying, "I like to leave my dirty tampons in the library at school because it makes me feel free." Ughs~
On the brighter note, it did kind of make my day because it was really funny. This guy tried to sit at that table and I told him not to sit there, so he sat at the next table over, and we were both just patrolling that desk. It was hilarious seeing the expression on people's faces. It was priceless. One girl totally didn't even see it and me and the guy both said, "Don't sit there!" and She said, "*attitude face* uh, whyeee?!" LOL and then she realized there was a tampon on the desk. Then she laughed and said thanks. Then I said, "FUCK YOU!" and she scurried away like a little chipmunk seeing a human near his tree. W00t! =)
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| How about Shopashush-shush? =( The coupons! the V.I.B.'s.. the Angel.. the "You can upgrade to VISA".. the stupid cards and rewards they give you when you spend over hundreds of dollars! They only make me shop more.  For quite some time, I've given up shopping for clothing and cosmetics. I was so proud of myself, until all those birthday rewards came rushing in my mailbox. "Your wish is granted, Angel... $10 off your next purchase.", "Congratulations! You're now a V.I.B., Thank you! 10% off your next purchase at Sephora." Oh... how these companies want to kill you...  I want to buy everything! Thank the lord I knew what kind of clothes I wanted and actually took a day to review what I was going to buy before I clicked, "Check Out." When I went to ask Sephora what it means to be a V.I.B., I wanted to shoot myself... she said, "it means you've spent over $350 in the store within this year." OMG... WTF.. maybe that's not too bad... but what if you became a valued shopper at Macy's... which means you spent over $500... and what if you got your extra $10 reward from VS? which means you spent over $250???? and what if you got $15 from Express for your bday? (I THINK you normally only get 10) but either way I spent over hundreds of dollars in that store too.. ANYWAYS.. my point is... "My name is Helen Giang, and I'm a shopaholic." I find solace by pulling out brand new things from their never used bags... I really walk through the stores and "just forget the world." I love shopping... But I hate paying for my bills. At least I can say that I have never once paid interest on ANY of my credit cards...  I guess I'm not a true shopaholic since I still know my limits.  A quote I loveee loveee loveeeee from Sex and the City..
"but the most exciting, challenging, and significant relationship of all... is the one you have with yourself. and if you find someone to love the "you" that you love... well, that's just fabulous..." | | |
| I am officially not a teenager anymore! I am twenty! My birthday was celebrated with my loved ones and I am truly glad that I have the ones I love by my side. Hehe. I now have an annual pass to Disneyland, Thanks to my few selected friends. I love you all! Even though you didn't do much... Seeing you meant so much more. You make me so happy... and during this transition, sad, all at the same time. But I hope it all works out for the better. For you and me, both.I love you and I wish you still read my Xanga. In addition to the celebration of my birthday, I get to celebrate for the interview at the bank scheduled for next week. I am so excited. I hope I get the job. *crosses fingers* I signed up for classes and I realized I am half way done with college and I am so proud of myself for doing well. I cannot believe I lost so much motivation these past two semesters and still made it through. There is nothing to complain about. I'm just happy. | | |
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